My problem is not that I am a normal person that wants to be different. My problem is that I am different and I fail at being normal.

 

 My problem is not that I am a normal person that wants to be different. My problem is that I am different and I fail at being normal.

 I have thought about what it would be like to have control over my creative side. I have no control. It controls me and it has always controlled me. There was a time where I took a break many years after my son way born. While I was able to greatly perform my duties as a father- not allowing myself to work (as in let my mind go with the creativity)  I left myself a mess. My brain races, I have 1000000 million ideas. Now i am not saying that they are all good ideas. Some of them appeal to people some of them do not. These racing thoughts, ideas, what have you will often haunt me to sleep. I often overwhelm myself with projects leaving some to never be completed. I believe though that this is due to stress and fear. Then never ending need to produce for money. Once this project gets set and done it will give me enough money for the next, once this project gets set and done it will leave me money to get by for the next, and so on. I have done quite a bit of charity work and will continue too. I will continue to help the poor and help the hungry. I will continue to teach children, and I will continue my work as an actor/ vocalist/ writer/ poet/ Entertainer. The latter... I have no choice. If I die a poor entertainer I will die an entertainer. I was raised that money is not important, it is how you choose t live your life that is important. I wish I was raised otherwise cause as I have learned. No one really cares about you as an entertainer.... unless you are a famous entertainer.... until then. Everything in life seems to be based on how much money you make. I do not drink, smoke, do drugs. I act, write, sing, and teach. I will continue to do these things and I have no choice in the matter and no control over the arts, With out them- I will lose my mind.

I am sure I will mostly likely continue to be a struggling entertainer that will be judged by people who say that money isn't everything and it is what you do with your life that counts as they are blindly lead by the dollar bill and walking all over the poor to get to it.

If I could sit down with Jesus and have this discussion today. I wonder how it would go. Either way, Happy Birthday Jesus.

 I am roughly 17,000 words in to one of my new projects- A DOLL IN THE WOODS,  16,942 to be exact. I wish I had been keeping track of this from the beginning. I have discovered since I have starting keeping track that I generally write every other day. I am aiming to write everyday. It seems like I am writing everyday- but I guess it is every other day. When I am done I will list how many words i write a day for will be writers out there that like to keep up with that for their personal records. The story is getting real interesting though. I can't wait to finish it... one day 

I have received word that the short film I have an appearance in Death Follows, is being shopped around for festivals right now. Eventually I believe to be in a compilation of short works put out by Potent Media.

Apocalypse Kiss has picked up world wide distribution and will be available on DVD and REDBOX in 2014. 

I have also signed on to work with a group called SKYE RADIO THEATRE, which is going to be doing weekly online radio shows very similar to the 50s. I am working on a story for this right now with a young lady currently titled "Horner"

I have also been back on the phone with the Trademark offices about another NEW CHARACTER. I think people will really appreciate this character and what I am doing with him. 

Of course, Slo Frank is gearing up as well for his new show too.... More to come on that.

Well oh well... I will get to writing the New years Resolution. I wonder what my sons is. I wonder what my girlfriends is, and all my others friends and fans are. If you would, if there are any readers out there at all. Please, please, please, post em in the comment box.

MERRY CHRISTMAS EVERYONE, and remember It's CHRISTmas, not Greedness. We are celebrating the birth of Jesus Christ not celebrating how many gifts we expect to get.

I love you all and Thank you for your constant support,

Christopher Inlow 

p.s. as  a reminder. I do not go back and check this- it is written in rough draft form and left in rough draft form. Getting words out of my system and hopefully helping some people and guiding them along the way.